Been trying to put my emotions to writing as a means of therapy…on those rough days if I get it out, it seems to help, if only for a bit. But anxiety/mental illness is not talked about enough in the work place, I don’t think.
I don’t think people understand how truly difficult it is sometimes to function. Even though it looks like it’s all okay on the outside, it doesn’t mean it is.
That’s why I love some of the artwork I’ve seen from people who have put mental illnesses into pictures; it’s truly amazing, and uplifting and maybe it will help people to understand better.
Can’t You See I’m Drowning
I don’t feel good enough
for the rain to touch my skin
I’m not worthy of the catharsis
of nature’s natural tears
I wonder what I look like on the outside
when the minutes crawl by like years
Unrest that spins like sickness
behind my eyes
I smile, I laugh, I tease
Why can’t they see the lies?
A blackness that crushes
a grey that claws
picks at your attention
pulls at your senses
clouds around your personal bubble
’till everything and everyone is in a fog
But I’ve got to smile
be courteous, communicative
I’ve got to be
energetic and organized
to be impossibly awesome
like no one has before
watch me drag my feet across the floor
Can’t they see I’m drowning?